Anthem of 2014

For me, music is a form of therapy.  Sometimes a song encapsulates exactly what I’ve been trying to say but couldn’t find the words.  It takes me out of my own head, makes me realize that I’m not alone and helps me feel something when I’m otherwise completely numb.  That said, there has perhaps never been a song that has made me feel quite like this one does- almost as it was written exclusively about/for me.  It has brought me to tears but also made me feel comfort because the underlying meaning is a positive one.  It makes me realize there are brighter days ahead no matter how dark it is has been lately.  It makes me realize that step by step, no matter how small, I’m not letting this divorce dictate my life.  I’m going to survive.  I’ve decided to stay.

Was 27 surviving my return of Saturn
A long vacation didn’t sound so bad
Was full of secrets locked up tight like iron mountain
Running on empty so out of gas

Thought I wasn’t enough
Found I wasn’t so tough
Layin’ on the bathroom floor
We were living on a fault line
And I felt the fault was all mine
Couldn’t take it anymore

By the grace of God (there was no other way)
I picked myself back up (I knew I had to stay)
I put one foot in front of the other
And I looked in the mirror and decided to stay
Wasn’t gonna let love take me out that way

I thank my sister for keeping my head above the water
When the truth was like swallowing sand
Now every morning, there is no more mourning
Oh, I can finally see myself again

I know I am enough
Possible to be loved
It was not about me
Now I have to rise above
Let the universe call the bluff
Yeah, the truth’ll set you free

By the grace of God
I picked myself back up
I put one foot in front of the other
And I looked in the mirror and decided to stay
Wasn’t gonna let love take me out that way

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